I haven’t posted in a while. I needed to take a step back for my own health, however I felt the need to post as September is Suicide Awareness Month. A month, and a reminder, that mental health should never go overshadowed or underestimated, by anyone, anything, at any time.
It wasn’t too long ago that I was in the darkest period of my life’s three decades. A time when falling asleep on a tear-stained pillow was a nightly occurrence. A time when getting out of bed and going to work was an every day struggle. A time when I stopped eating and turned to alcohol to numb the pain.
A time when seeing the next morning was often a question, when I strongly considered ending it all.
This wasn’t and still isn’t easy for me to talk about, and certainly not in detail. The catch, it is important we express and tell of our feelings, emotions, and thoughts. It’s important we speak of our truth and lean on our support system – family, friends, colleagues, teachers, a therapist.
Whatever it may be, wherever you find yourself, never be ashamed of your story. We all have chapters, some better than others, but every chapter grows us. Every chapter strengthens us .. changes us. Remember, even when we don’t think so, every dark chapter will come to a close. It may be an uphill battle every moment of the day, but light will eventually find us again.
If you find yourself on a dark page, a dark chapter, please know you are not alone. You are loved. You are seen. You are strong. And, if you feel the darkness is too much, if you don’t know where to turn, please allow support in – please contact 1-800-273-TALK.